Tuesday, October 20, 2020

I started this journal, in part, as a way to keep me positive when I was feeling a bit down. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t suffer from depression in the way that I know some people do. But this Covid-19 isolation is getting me down, in particular because it has been too long, much too long, since I’ve seen my kids and grandchildren.

For the past month it has been particularly tough for whatever reason. I remember writing to a friend that Thanksgiving was a holiday that I didn’t feel particularly sad about missing family; I guess that might be the reason because since then I really have felt sad.

In this past month in speaking with a number of friends I’m good until they ask “So how are you doing with all this”. I tend to lose it more often than not – only briefly but it is a sign that “all this” is getting to me. Yesterday a friend even got teary while we chatted because, even though she has her family here, they haven’t been getting together for their usual special occasions.

Christy posted this on Facebook a few days ago and it rang so true for me. Let this be a warning to my children. When this is over (or when I win the lottery and can secure a private flight) I will be visiting – often! Even when I lived in the North I took trips outside more often than I have been able to since the pandemic hit.

So now that I’ve said “it” I hope I have it out of my system and I intend to move on being thankful that we are all well.

I discovered another error in my Hex-Along blocks – I don’t know why I’m having so much trouble translating the photos from the clue with my own choices of fabric. On that positive swing, I’m going to say that the photos with the clue aren’t that clear. I’ve spent a lot of the day putting together the blocks from our online retreat. I’ve picked out a spot to hang it so I may keep at the project and get it quilted.

Pat bought a new-to-us glider rocker with a footstool. We’re not sure where it might end up but I think it will be somewhere in our Powell River home. There just isn’t enough room in the studio for any more furniture.

Tonight Kathryn and I are going to have a discussion around my Advance Care Planning options – that should cheer me up!