Sunday, January 29, 2023

After my prolonged stay in hospital it is great to be home. I’m on a lot of medications and it keeps me busy just keeping up with the schedule. Pat put everything into the calendar which makes it so much easier for me. Particularly because over the next couple of days some of them stop or some will change the dosage.

I’m pleased that I really have no pain, but I’m a long way from feeling “myself”. I tire really easily and I have very low energy. I’m trying to build up my strength – in spite of the cool days we’ve managed to get out for short walks.

I almost have to force myself to eat. I have no appetite no matter what yummy meals Pat prepares. After half a dozen bites I’m done. I know I need to eat to get my strength back so I keep trying.

I’m also dealing with some “mind” issues – some anxiety and a very easy slip into depression. I try to keep myself busy but even though I have things I could do I have little to no interest in doing them. 

I want the woman back who could hardly wait to start her day at six in the morning and who could tackle and solve almost any issue. These days I’m barely able to drag myself out of bed for my 8 AM meds.

This is not meant to be a “woe is me” post. I’m just finding it hard to deal with this new reality.